I'm at the point in my life where I believe it is near impossible to satisfy everyone. My entire life, and more so the past 4 years, I have been trying to impress and satisfy everyone that I love. The result? Making myself absolutely miserable. It sucks because there are so many people in my life that I would just love to make happy - but no matter what I do, I'm just not good enough and I seem to let someone down somehow, all of the time. It's disappointing that no matter what I do, no matter how hard I try - I've just been failing.

I wish I could make them understand, that their disappointment in me -- eats at my soul. Maybe it's time for me to grow thicker skin and a stronger backbone, but right now - I just feel awful.